Confessions?

After enjoying a week off between school subterms I am back at the books. That week was fun but in many ways emotional so I have a lot on my mind. And in this I have a couple of confessions to make.

Last thursday I went to a wedding. My handsome husband was in the bridal party as one of the handsome groomsmen (sorry mr. groom but IMO my man was the handsomest guy up there) so I sat with some of my awesome guy friends.

Confession #1

Weddings are one of the few things that can bring out the girliest part of me.

They make me shriek, giggle and blush. I get excited about finding the perfect gift for the couple, knowing what the color theme is, what the flowers will be like, where the bride got her dress, reception centerpieces, where they are going for the honeymoon, and the mushy love story that every engaged couple loves to tell a million times over.

And weddings are one of the few events that I not only care about dressing up for but get excited about.

I have this pair of ridiculous 3inch heels. I wear them maybe once a year.. and even then they usually end up coming off half way thru whatever event I am attending. (I always have a pair of flip flops with me... ya can't go wrong with flip flops)

Yep, definitely got the girly out of me for a while. Don't expect to see me in a skirt anytime soon.

Confession #2

I cried a little at aforementioned wedding.

This does NOT happen. I never cry about anything. Not at movies, not at weddings. It was just such a beautiful wedding. And I was reminded of my own marriage. (Not that this was hard considering that my own hubby was standing 3 ft from the groom.) I was overwhelmed in that moment being reminded of how awesome it is to love and be loved by the right person at the right time.

*Tangent warning*

My relationship has been criticized many a time. Clint and I love each other so very much but we have quirky ways of showing it. I think the thing that a lot of people do not understand is that I truly did marry my best friend. I love just hanging out with my husband. He is my favorite person to do just about everything with. Yeah, we "argue" in public. If you spend enough time with us you learn very quickly that these "arguments" are just us messing with each other.

The other thing about us is that even in our rough patches there is always one thing we hold each other to. And that is God. God started out as the center of this relationship, he still and and will always be. We know know and acknowledge that with out him nothing in our lives could work. This is despite the disappointment and frustration we have faced in life situations. God continues to be our center.

Ok I better end this random tangent while I can cause I could rant about the things that people have said about our relationship for ever. But that is a post for another time.

*End Random Tangent*

Confession #3

I am the queen of knee jerk reactions.

Last week something happened that initially cause me to have a negative attitude and reaction. I was thankful that despite the fact that my reaction was knee-jerk, I managed to get by without saying something to someone that I would regret.

Self control is key when it comes to emotions. We are all faced time after time with situations that can cause a knee-jerk reaction. You know what I am talking about. Those times when you are told something and then you speak your emotions before you have a chance to think about them.

Sometimes knee-jerk reactions are accurate. Other times they could not be further from the actual reality of the situation, which was the case in the situation I encountered this past week. After some prayer and consideration I realized that I was wrong in my initial reaction. And while I am still not sure what exactly God is going to do in it, I know that my initial reaction was one of fear and a lack of trust.

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Well, that's about it for now friends. Only one more thing I want to mention- I have been reading a lot lately. It is something I am trying to make an effort to do more despite my busy schedule. This past weekend I read "The Christian Atheist" By Craig Groeschel. I have been wanting to write a blog post about it so I will probably do that tonight to post tomorrow.

I also started reading "The Irresistible Revolution" by Shane Claiborne which I am very excited about. Next on my list to read is "Exponential" by Dave Furgeson and Jon Furgeson. There is a story about how Clint and I discovered that book but that is a story for a future post.

(LDJE)