Life update

Hello blog world!

A couple of updates as far as my random life goes.

Work

Most of you know that, on faith, I quit my job at Burger King a little over a month ago. This was for many reasons that I will not bore you with again.

Since then I have been furiously job hunting because quitting that job left clint and I with barely a third of our monthly income. (yeah big uh oh)

Thankfully we have made it thus far because we used our tax check to pay off everything that was due. I knew that wouldnt last long of course so my stress levels have been sky high in looking for this new job.

In the past few days (literally crunch time for us financially) things have been looking up.

I had an interview today at mcdonalds that I feel I did extremely well in. I should know by the end of the week if I have a job there.

I also have another application (at the mclure by 69) that I am waiting on a call for an interview. I spoke to the manager yesterday and she seemed interested and said she would let me know by the end of this week.

So by then end of the week I will probably have at least one job and an interview for a second one.

In all honesty I am really hoping for the Mcclure job for a couple reasons. I would love to get out of fast food and I know that my piercings wont be at all a problem there. But I will take what I can get. If I am offered Mcdonalds I will take it. I am considering the possibility of working two jobs at least for a month or two so that we can get caught up on our bills. But we shall see. It will all depend on many things including the specific hours I am offered at each place, the rate of pay and the amount of hours I will be offered.

I am not counting on anything though. I am still working hard at putting in apps at other places as well.

Clint is still for now working in Fort wayne at the most awesome Remedy. It is hard for him being as late as it is having 8am classes 3 days a week as well but he has pushed on and made it work.

Clint has also applied for a summer job on campus that we are hoping he will be offered.

School

I am doing well this subterm. Better then I thought I would considering that I have a philosophy class that I knew would not be my strong suit. I am still working on graduating sometime next year. I have made 2 decisions though:

a) While I had been contemplating turning my minor criminal justice into a second major I have decided that it is probably not the best option. It would push back my gradutation date back at least another semester if not two putting me at graduating in 2013. I would just rather not, and I dont feel like God is leading me to that.

b) However, I am looking into getting my masters in counseling, continuing the in the graduate program at LUO. This is not for sure yet and I have a lot of things to consider.

Clint is also doing wonderfully. I am so proud of him. He has so much going on this semester. His classes are not easy at all and working in fort wayne every week night makes things a lot harder. But he has pushed on and has kept his grades up. Did I mention that I am proud of him?

Random Other stuff

Life in general has been stressful to say the least. Clint and I are both concerned because we are not steady financially but we have confidence that God will get us thru this rough patch just as he has every other one.

Gabriel is just the same bratty lovable cuddle bug. He is not amused when clint and I both have to be gone all day for work or homework but he will learn to manage. When we are home we both try to spoil him with lots of love, cuddles and a healthy amount of treats. He has learned to behave himself enough that we can sometimes leave him out of his crate when we are not home.

We are working out plans for this summer including seasonal jobs, visits to family, and school. We are not all that focused on that right now though. Our focus is on our homework and remedying our financial situation so that we can finish strong this semester.

Prayers appreciated. Love to all our awesome friends and family.

LDJE

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So i hate making up titles for blog entries cause they tend to be boring repeats. so yeah. most of the time i will not have a title beyond the periods.. if you want to know what the post is about look at the tags... lol sorry for that little rant

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A lil reminder :

My shut-up box often malfunctions. This makes me a very blunt, honest, say the first thing that comes to my head kinda gal. Please dont take anything personally. I might be offensive,rude, or on occasion a bit vulgar. it's mostly just honesty though. So read on.. but don't say i didnt warn you :)

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Today a couple things came up that have made me reflect on past friendships.

I have had a lot of friends come and go in my 21 years of life. For this reason or that reason. I know that there are probably a handful of people out there who think that i hate them. Here's the truth of that matter.

I know a lot of people say this who dont mean this but if you were my friend for any period of time you know the following statement is true:

I don't hate anyone.

I really dont. There are people who have hurt me and lost my trust. There are people that i feel are/were making some mistakes so severe in their life that i feel/felt the need to remove myself from them.

But I truly do not hate anyone.

The way i see friendship is VERY 2 sided. friends help each other. they dont tear each other down. if i feel as though i am being torn down, i will back away from a a friendship.

I care so much about my friends that i hang on way past the time that a person starts hurting me because i want to help. But i have realized that i can only take so much. And though some might call it selfish I know when to take a step back from a person. This also applies to friends that I feel (or felt at one point) God wants me to help. If it gets to the point that this person has turned away from God and refuses to take anything i say to heart, I will step back and put it in God's hands.

That has always been the hardest part for me. Stepping back out of a person's life and putting it in God's hands. It is heartwrenching for me. Because i care.

I have emotional scars from people that i still care about. I still pray for these people every day.

Which leads me to a pet peeve of mine. The phrase "forgive and forget" or "forgiving is forgetting"

In my opinion it is not.

Here's my thing. If you do something wrong, that makes me lose your trust, YES i will forgive you. BUT i am not gonna forget what you did. This is not to say that i will hold it over your head.

But you must to a certain extent earn my trust back again.

Trust is easier lost then gained. I trust my closest friends so much. To lose it takes a decent amount considering that i am quick to give people the benefit of the doubt. But if a person does some thing to lose my trust i admit that it is not easily gained back. This is simply because I, like any human, do not want to be hurt.

So to all those people from my past - I do forgive you. I do not hate you. I am praying for you.