August of last year. Thats when I posted here last. Ten months ago. A lot sure has happened since then.
The posts stopped because, while I hid it fairly well in real life, August through October of last year were some of the most trying days of my life.
My husband and I were technically living apart. Not because we wanted to but because we felt we had to. I was living with his parents, and he was an hour a way couch surfing and trying to find a job that would enable us to move back to the town we felt we should be living in.
It was rougher than we want to admit. It put a bit of a strain on our relationship (nothing that wasnt amendable with time). And we definitely will not be doing that again. We both slipped into a bit of depression. We were discouraged, worn out and felt like nothing was going our way. We strove to hold on to God even in those darkest moments. But it was hard, there is no denying that.
At the end of September we basically gave up on moving back to the town we wanted to be in. Clint moved back in and started with a temp agency and the plan was to save enough money to move back out on our own. That was really frustrating for us. Clint wasnt in ministry, as he felt he was lead to be, I didn't have a job, and in general we felt like we were just existing.
We were broken and felt abandoned by God.
Of course that's when God started to work. When we got to the point that we had tried everything and finally just gave up.
In October I started a telecommute / on-call job with RemedyLive (a great ministry that we have been involved with on and off for several years). This job was technically enough for us to get approved to move into our own apartment in Fort Wayne. So we took the risk, and moved down with a monthly income that just barely covered our rent. Clint was with a temp agency that had multiple locations including one in Fort Wayne and the plan was for him to get transferred to this office and get a new assignment locally. It was still risky though because it of course depends on what they have available. It could have taken 2 days or 2 months for him to get a new assignment.
Thankfully God moved and he was able to start a new assignment a week or so after we made the move. The rough times weren't over yet though. The new assignment paid fairly well but the schedule was horrible. We barely saw each other and were on almost entirely opposite sleep schedules. But we were willing to put up with it because it was better than living apart and we kept praying God would move again.
And it did. Of course in an unexpected way. Clint developed an allergy to something at the factory. He broke out in a bad case of hives. They sent him to the Dr. to confirm it was something from the factory and then let him go because it was a liability.
I was freaked out and yet calm at the same time. And that's when God came through again. Remedy offered Clint a position that would get us through. He was put back on air with
That pretty much brings you up to date. God is still working and things are changing. We know that even this isn't permanent and are looking forward to what God has in store for us as we continue to move forward.
If you want to continue reading about my life feel free to subscribe to this blog. I am committing to posting regularly again. Both here and on my creativity blog. Here I will be posting things about life, my thoughts, and randomness. My creativity blog is for all my artistic endeavors, from food and recipes to DIY home and craft project.
I just want to finish this blog post with one final thought.
My life is on the upswing, but I know there are those of you who are going through the dark days right now. I just want to encourage you to hold on. God will move in his timing which is better than our own. I know that in the darkest of days it is so difficult to trust him, to hold on to hope, to trust in his timing and not try to take matters in our own hands. But be reminded that he hasn't and wont leave you. The sun will come again.
LDJE
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